i just dunno wat is it ...

i really wanna know wat is it
wat is it tat change my life ? ...
wat is it tat i can't just think right ?
why did i choose the path of being bad
and i am regreting now
all my thinks tat r done can't be change
i'm to totally regreting my punishment
now i wanna get a new life but i can't
y ???
i dunno wat is it that keeps stoping
me from all my doing
i wanna be guai is to hard
y ???
every time i try not to scold vulgar
it can't be done
i can't help it being bad ..
my 1 and oni wish is
v.simple and not much requirement
just get a simple life
have fun playing
be single
have frens that i reali can trust
...
None of those can be done ...
y ?
to much stress ? yes i got to much stress
i gotta think of stuffs and study how can i have a simple life
have fun playing ? i can have fun playing people are always
disturbing me !
have frens i can reali trust THTS EVEN WORST !
i can't trust any1 if i could tell a secret
i couldnt tell any thing tat is v.precious
to me and it couldn't be trust
i tried telling my reali best frens
tat i have a history dat changed me to be
a single for long
but whenever i tell them
those they still disturb me
with those stuff
e.g hey ur lao po
when ever i hear it
it only reminds me about my pass
if i would like some1
its my choice not
any1 else every1
shud agree with their
choices
i can't even agree with my choices
wats rong
with me why why why
and why !!! is my life
so miserable and complicated

i wish my own simple life wud come true !